Vulnerably Transparent

Inspired by a quote from the magazine Where Women Create:

It all began when I realized I could.

I’m relatively new to blogging. I was introduced to it by Mrs. Shelby Stone-Steel; a friend of ours. Shelby was a journalism major in college & currently lives in Brooklyn, NY with her hubby Mike. Check her out at: http://shelbystonesteel.blogspot.com.

After several months of frequenting Shelby’s blog, I started to wonder what blogging was really all about. I’m not one to sit back and wonder, so I got online to figure things out for myself. 40 minutes and 400 words later, I had a blog…. That was one and a half years ago. Then, the fire happened, the hotel happened, we bought a house, I started another semester, so on and so on. Life simply continued. Yet, the seed had been planted. My words lingered out there. My thoughts had occurred. Were they important? Did they matter? Do I really care?

In the mean time, I continued to learn so much about myself. After a conversation with God, I learned that I worry too little about what He thinks of me; always focused on what I think others are thinking about me. God has given me so many talents, desires, and gifts. I’m creative & intelligent with a splash of wisdom. You see, I wasn’t going to share my blog because I was too worried about others not understanding my words. I was convinced that I would get these terribly hurtful comments and did not want to take the chance of putting myself out there. I figured that I could continue to have my thoughts without the potential consequence of failure.

Somehow that wasn’t good enough. With many encouraging words from my mom, hubby, a professor or two, and the knowledge of who God is, I decided to go for it. (They were not telling me to “blog,” but they recognize that the words that I speak and the manner in which I put them together were budding with significance.) They helped me realize that I have something to offer. Withholding my thoughts in written form could be detrimental not only to myself, but to God’s plan. What if the words He has given to me were meant for someone in particular? What if I had a message that could brighten someone’s day or alter their experiences? What if I didn’t believe in who God fashioned me to be for just another day? What message does that send about my relationship with Him. Besides, how could at fail at blogging? It’s whatever I want it to be!

Don’t get me wrong. It can be much easier to sit on the sidelines of life never getting hurt or failing at anything. But that’s really not me. I’m full of so much faith. I have to trust that God wants me to share who I am with others. And since I’m not good at phone calls, I figure that this is a good way to maintain a connection with those in my life, while sparking a few new relationships. People will get to know me better with every post, every thought, every word. (I will still remain very sensitive about whatever I create- I just yelled at Greg for trying to read this post as I’m writing it.)

It can be challenging to share your innermost thoughts and feelings with others. Although I may struggle to share what’s going on in my mind, I intend to improve my ability to relate to others while enhancing my literary skills.

I recognize that there are so many people in the world who wish they had a political system, family structure, or the pure freedom to share the words that God has placed in their heart. With all the opportunities that lie in my possession, I can not continue to contain the thoughts inside of me. (It will probably give Greg a break from listening to me all of the time as well. lol)

I am significant. I do have something to offer this world. My life is full of purpose. I will proclaim my brilliance, boldness, and belief with every breath God grants me.

So here I am world!

Vulnerably Transparent


http://www.wherewomencreate.com/magazine.html